Are My Emotions Broken?

My emotions are large.  Ginormious.  Overwhelming even at times.  I feel on a grand scale.  In other words…..I am intense.  Can it be merely attributed to being a scorpio?  Are my emotions broken, defective, or otherwise impaired?  Was there an emotion recall that I missed?  I have to wonder because I have yet to find others that feel things quite as intensely as I do. 

When I am in love, it feels like my chest is a balloon filled to capacity but that air is still trying to be forced in (and it is not an unpleasant feeling!).  It is entirely all consuming.  When I am sad I am in the depths of despair and when happy I am at the height of euphoria.  I feel anger in every part of my body; it doesn’t happen often but that is for the best I assure you!

I have actually been feeling a bit sorry for myself because of this intensity that I can’t seem to tame and then in a very serendipitous manner I found a quote in the book I am reading: “….if life is going to exist in a Universe of this size, then the one thing it cannot afford to have is a sense of proportion.”  And I found myself feeling just a bit better…..but in a very intense way lol!  This is from “The Restaurant at the End of the Universe”, part of the “Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy” trilogy by Douglas Adams, and is in relation to the Total Perspective Vortex. 

While I may or may not have broken emotions, I must live with what I have and attempt to function.  I will just remind myself not to have a sense of proportion so that I won’t feel as though I am stuck with an unfair lot compared to others.  And who knows, maybe everyone else is too contained anyway lol!  Perhaps they are the broken ones!


~ by savasana on July 14, 2007.

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