Happy Birthday Shells!

Huge ginormous happy birthday wishes going out to one of the most fantabulous chicas I know!!  I love ya to bits and pieces!  You are truly one of the most kind, generous, gentle, wise, and beautiful people I have ever met.  I hope your entire year is as fantastic as you are because you deserve nothing but the very best!! *uber giant hugs*

So um….

I’m feeling much better now.  ;-D

To What Benefit?

Why do people play games with other people? Not Monopoly, Trivial Pursuit, or Axis & Allies (my favourite boardgames!), but emotional games. And why do those games seem to always come back to ego? Why do people have to take from other people to make themselves feel better? The sensitive naive givers (namely me) are so damn vulnerable to these games. We are the first to be taken advantage of because we are such easy marks.

I closed myself off to such games and the pursuit of relationships etc. for a long time because it just hurt too damn much. And then someone came along that actually seemed to be different. The moment (though I didn’t realize it at the time) I opened myself back up to such things I was entirely roped back in to the game. The game where one ego feeds off of another like a parasite so subtle the host doesn’t realize what is happening. Until it is too late and the damage is done.

How can I ever ever ever open back up again now? How can I ever trust my judgment, my instinct, my heart when they have done nothing but put a beacon over my head that the parasites flood towards? Why do I even have to want to be with someone? Why couldn’t we evolve to be a single person species instead of having that wretched instinct to pair bond? Why couldn’t I have come along after all of the sensitive naive givers had become extinct due to natural selection or genetic mutation? Why can’t Janis Joplin still be alive so I can just be a lesbian and not care anymore?!

Listen, if you are in a relationship right now, go and hug that person…seriously. Tell them how much they mean to you, that you appreciate them, and make sure you are giving as much as you are taking. And do that every day. Appreciate what you have and don’t ever become one of the parasites that has to suck out of someone else what you are missing in your own life. If you happen to come across one of us sensitive naive givers perpetually mending their heart, give’em a warm cookie. Something with chocolate in it please.

And hey, I’m asking the same thing you are, why would anyone want to hurt ME?!  I mean, I’m bloody fantastic!  I’m in as much shock as you are folks!

G’night; I have to go cry myself to sleep now.

Snow. Yeah, That’s Right, I Said It!

We had our first snowfall here yesterday. It was actually quite fantastic. I love the snow in November and December; it only becomes troublesome January through March. We are still very much pre-ice and slush (many of the leaves on the trees haven’t even changed colour let alone fallen!) so I am able to embrace the snow whole-heartedly. I’ll become bitter about it later, don’t worry!

With winter truly on its way….I had better hurry up on the scarf I started tonight (the fuzz is the aplaca-y awesomeness)…..

Help. Me.

With the amount that I have spent on wool, which I can’t even wear by the way, I could have purchased my own bloody sheep!!

I had a lovely day out with friends yesterday and part of it was a bit of a shopping extravaganza which involved bringing them to my favourite yarn shop for the first time. I was thinking that they needed to share in my addiction, they needed to experience what I would go on and on about with glassy eyes, describing the walls filled with the most luscious colours. I wasn’t going to buy anything however as I had already treated myself this week. I was strictly going to encourage them and nothing more. Was I ever wrong.

Now I would like to say that in no way did I come near spending the most money…..but I did not need another $50 in wool!!! And yet….somehow…..I managed to convince myself that I did need to do just that!

Feast your eyes on some Koigu KFM magnificence!!

I am going to make a scarf alternating the colours in just a stockinette stitch with perhaps some lacy holes near the ends and then felt it up! There was a sample at the store of just that and it was fantastic!! Have I mentioned that I don’t even own any pink? I don’t do pink people!! What am I thinking? Have I gone entirely mad? Both of these skeins are very out of the box for me but I fell in love with them!  I have no idea what I will wear it with however as my clothing is very much in the earth tone vein, including my olive green jacket.  Does this mean that I will need to purchase more to knit something to wear it with?!  Surely a heroin addiction would be easier to manage…..and may even cost less.

I am a Yarn Wh0re.

And it is all the fault of the yarn pimp, Ms. Shells. Yes, she posts up her delicious yarn pr0n, flaunting her goods, teasing me with its fabu-osity. And then of course I must head to my LYS and pick up some yarn to satiate my appetite for hand-painted goodness. Three skeins of the most fantastic spring green KPPPM came home from work with me today! Love you Shells!!!

And I never did show the skein of Fiesta Ballet in the Astor colourway I picked up couple of weeks ago either….mmmm….alpaca-y awesomeness!

101 Things You Likely Didn’t Want to Know About Sav: Final Installment

I must admit, as difficult as it was at times to come up with trivial information, I’m a little sad that this is the final installment of Things You Likely Didn’t Want to Know.  Perhaps that means that I enjoy writing about myself just a little too much!  Well, I am an introvert after all…..(that piece of information is to make up for the fact that I inadvertently used “competitive” twice on previous installments).  If you missed the first three installments you can read them here: first, second, third.

1. I love tomatoes in all forms.  One of my favourite ways to eat them is just sliced fresh from the garden with a bit of s&p.  I also make an excellent tomato sauce.  Delicious!!

2.  I can be extremely shy in certain situations but most people that meet me don’t realize it.

3.  I love movies, all genres, but especially quirky ones.  I have many favourites, far too numerous to begin listing here as they are all for various reasons and I would feel the need to expound on why for each film.

4.  I’m working very hard to get into better shape; one of my goals is to take up a marshal art when I feel as though I’m ready.  I haven’t researched which one would be most suitable but I still have a looonnng time before I will need to decide lol!  I do wonder if it is the draw of the jam-like uniform that has me compelled to take it up….

5.  I adore road trips.  All of the family vacations we took while growing up involved long hours in the car to get somewhere.  The trips to and from the destinations were always one of my favourite parts.  I believe my love of car-singing was born during one of those trips.

6.   My day must start with a fantastic cup of coffee.  I don’t have to have more throughout the day (I will drink tea if available though) but there must be at least one at some point in the morning.

7.  I listed my second greatest fear.  I will not tell you my greatest fear.

8.  I am easily distracted.

9.  If I could have a do-over for the last ten years I would very likely become a paramedic.

10.  I’m fairly certain I fall into the category of “geek”.

11.  I adore the rain, especially thunderstorms.  Definitely snuggling weather.

12.  Did I mention snuggling?  Yes, I love affection.

13.  Ice cream is amazing.  Mmmm…..

14.  While I loathe slush and ice, I love it when it snows, especially at night.  I love going for a walk in the peacefulness of a snowfall.

15.  I spend way more time at my computer than I should.

16.   I always wanted to have a brother.  I do have two sisters though we are all extremely unalike.

17.  I truly cannot understand why you are still reading this blog.  Really.

18.   I absolutely do not dance (note “not graceful” in one of the other installments).  Well…..unless I am fed a great deal of vodka.  And I mean a lot of vodka.  Consequently I do not drink that often.

19.   Unless I make a distinct point of remembering something I have a relatively bad memory.  If I do make a point of remembering something I can remember a great deal of detail.

20.  I love being on the water, especially small lakes.

21.   I try to live by a karmic code; you receive back what you put out in the universe.

22.  There is so much out there that I want to learn that I could fill up three lifetimes.  *sigh*

23.   Homophobia and misogyny make my blood boil.

24.   I have a great deal of patience in many areas….but waiting for surprises, trips, giving gifts to people, and special days are not included.  I become ridiculously excited!

25.  Most of the time I feel like a big kid who is waiting for someone to figure it out and take away my adult pass.  There are definitely times when I wouldn’t mind giving up the adult pass  for a couple of days.  Or weeks.

26.  I long for a grand adventure.

And there you have 101 Things that you both didn’t want nor do you need to know about Sav.  Now push that all back out of your brain so you have room for more important things!

Happy Birthday to Me!!

I’ve had a fantastic day thus far and I will tell more later this evening when all is said and done! Thank you to everyone for their birthday wishes and hugs!

Edit*

I had a wonderful birthday that involved two dozen roses, mucho money which is always welcome, lovely bamboo, celtic necklace goodness, chocolate deliciousness,  asian adorableness, lavender heavenliness, ….and some new hubcaps for Emily Howard!!!  She is a lady after all and it has been very very hard on her to be undressed!

All of that doesn’t even include the most amazing birthday thread at the Sporum, all for me!  Love you guys!

I also treated myself to two amazing pairs of jam pants….and they were even 60% off.  Damn I love jams!

Alright, Alright….You Win!

You guys just can’t let a gal have a perfectly lovely pity party *grumble, grumble, mutter*! You have to go ahead and leave fantastically kind and considerate comments all over the place, being completely all positive and caring *rolls eyes*! So I give up. Pity party is adjourned.

And thanks guys, you rock my socks lol!

Its My Blog and I’ll Whine If I Want To

I’m sick. I have been sick for three weeks now but I only recently found out it was a bronchial infection. All I know is I would like to stop coughing sometime in the near future and before I wake up to find a lung on my pillow.

I could deal with that without whining but it is also my birthday next week. I love holidays, celebrations, and birthdays to the utmost. I love making fusses of people and letting them know I love them and appreciate them. I get excited about my own birthday though only as a theory. You see, I am invariably disappointed on my birthday. And then I get the bonus of feeling incredibly selfish for feeling disappointed.

This year has the potential to be ultra-crappy because my friends seem to have forgotten about it. Not in the devious “let’s pretend and then surprise her” kind of way either. And my family is just uninterested as they have their own issues right now. And I’m at a new workplace and they don’t know it is coming either. So it will pass just like any other day. Perhaps that is for the best.

And did I mention it is my twenty-ninth? Ugh. I am not impressed with that I can tell you. I’m not really hung up on the age part of it; it is more that I am just not where I want to be in my life nor where I ever thought I would be at that age. But hey, who ever is, right?  It doesn’t help that something superly-amazingly-magnificently-fantastically awesome was supposed to happen in January but it appears it isn’t going to after all.  It would have been a most excellent distraction to get me through the birthday blues.

Frankly I don’t know which is worse: not doing anything remotely special or trying to make it special and it being a disappointment or feeling forced? I am leaning towards the latter being more unappealing at the moment. I think I will try to ignore my birthday and maybe it will go away. I would also very much appreciate everyone else doing so as well.

If you are still reading, you deserve a gold star for putting up with that selfish ridiculous whining tripe!